“Amazing grace! (how sweet the sound) That saved a wretch like me! I once was lost, but now am found, Was blind, but now I see.”  The first verse of Amazing Grace and how amazing it is!!!  Wretch a miserable person : one who is profoundly unhappy or in great misfortune.  I was not what they say as saved, or rather brought into a life filled with much more happiness and the ability to help others because I am a saint.  It is just the opposite with me, it was cause I was a wretch.  I am grateful for all the pain and misfortune I have received in this lifetime up to this point(wasn’t always happy about it and I have had enough for now thank you).  The fact remains I was an extremely unhappy person and brought through some pretty tough situations by my own hand and possibly grace.  These experiences, this pain I felt, was the only motivation that would of worked to make me who I am today.  Much of what I am today is a result from what I was yesterday.  I am loving today cause I lived in a constant state of hate in the past and nobody felt more pain from it then me, I hope not anyway.  I am nonviolent today cause I lived the opposite way for many years and the only person I was fighting in the end was myself.  I sought to get away from the pain through less than spiritual means by drinking and other negative behaviors which only increased the pain.  When I was completely broken down and out of ideas I let a higher power or whatever you want to call it into my life and asked it to guide me.  My life through some work and some grace has transformed since then but it was certainly intense pain that helped to give me what it took to change my life by luck or design.  This transformation had little to do with me and so much more to do with grace and the people and growing circumstances that it put into my life. 

I know I don’t know a lot but I do try to use these experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly to try and help others, to be a part of their grace like so many people were part of mine.

Peace Love Das